I have been doubting my career choice as of late. I'm not worried about the money or whether or not I can even get a job, I am more worried about the reputation and the implications associated with becoming a journalist.
I recently had an incredibly compelling discussion at the Hinman lunch table where my friend and one of our ISRC fellows talked about their personal ideas on the media and what the Internet has done to our society. Not a new conversation, media credibility is always a topic I struggle with. I spend most of my days giving people the benefit of the doubt, always giving even the most dreadful people room to prove me and my judgments wrong. Another way to look at it, you can also say that I oftentimes trust people and think they are good or "innocent" until proven guilty. Sure, I have learned during my time in college, in the workplace, on the streets and definitely in my time back in high school, but I think my optimistic side continues to flicker and refuses to be blown out. Call me naive, I would like to think that everyone in this world has some good. But, in this conversation over lunch, I realized that my arguments are frail and hardly hold themselves up. I increasingly became discouraged -- became critical of what my role is in society and as a journalist, more immediately, on campus. He criticized the Daily and other publications (professional and school-related) and how reading the printed or broadcasted news always leaves him less inclined to read more because of all the bias and mistakes. I tried to justify each piece of his argument, but I myself hardly believed the words coming out of my mouth.
Today, I was faced with an issue at NBN that reflected exactly what he said and that bothered me. In fact, I faced another unethical situation weeks ago. Every time, I become bothered, losing faith in the media myself. Without a doubt, I do my best to uphold journalistic integrity because it directly affects my own personal integrity and moral standards. I'm not trying to preach as if I'm sitting on a high horse. I will admit that I have made mistakes, occasionally knowingly, but I'm not proud of it and do my best to rectify my mistakes. That said, the fact that I make mistakes does not justify others having poor ethics in any way. I am glad that I spoke my mind today because, to me, people should vocalize their thoughts if they have a problem with something. Fortunately for me and, in my opinion, NBN, my friends and my actions and opinions helped us from posting a story with extremely unethical reporting. That said, I don't think this is the end. This story, while small in comparison with other amazing stories and features we pubish, is only a sign of the kind of restructuring that needs to be done -- not only within the publication's staff but in a more personal manner.
I challenge everyone to reevaluate why they do the things they do. Do you ever let things slide? If so, why? What does that say about your character? Do you ever do something or say something, knowing that it is unethical? What makes it acceptable in your mind?
I guess that raises the question: why am I still pursuing journalism even though there are such negative perceptions of the media? I think, with all the lunch discussions and Medill learnings, I realized that there are still people out there (if not slim pickings) who uphold moral integrity and that is a sign of hope, even if it's a sliver. I think that if I choose to drop out of journalism, which has never crossed my mind as a serious possibility, I will simply be running away from a problem -- inaction. For now, I guess I would say that I am choosing to continue studying journalism on the basis that, if I choose to be critical of my own actions and choices and keep to my principles, I can prove that real, genuine reporting still exists.
That's a big goal and a lot of big talk, and I surely don't know if I can do it. If I can, I surely can't do it alone.
I guess it's a challenge for journalists out there to prove people wrong and not just accept things as they are because, I'm hoping, there is a chance to shed some positive light on the media.